Go on

I am rather conscious, apprehensive too
Years passed, and a few are awaited
Balancing a tough task
A lot to analyse and unlearn
Ambiguous the scenarios

'Go on', I say
At times curbing the pain inside
Many a time with a smile 'unsmiled'
To achieve what I dreamt
Delete the not so nice
And let me dream afresh.

Many I hurt, I still say 'go on'
Yes, I am good not that good though
A few more years awaited,
I am ready for it
With enormous energy buried within
Waiting, for that 'went on...'
It is time now to unfold, to halt.
I now need to mean it,
When  I say 'go on'.